The Confidence Coach Susan L. Axelrod

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A New Dark Age?

Jews the world over are being tested. Challenged by Dark Forces as if anew.

But, it is not new. It is an energy as old as time, a Darkness our ancestors faced over and over. Slavery in Egypt, forced exodus, persecution, pogroms, holocaust, terrorism.

 Are our people alone in this human experience? No, we are not. Darkness has always been among us. Since the beginning of creation.

“And God said, Let there be light. God saw the light was good, and God separated the light from darkness. God called the light day, and the darkness He called night.” Gen 1:3-5.

 And thus, separation was created. And so, it has been since the beginning, Light and Darkness. And so, it is today, separateness. Jews feeling separate from others who don't understand them, elderly Jews who survived the ovens have dread in their hearts, and younger Jews feeling alone and scared, a tiny tribe in numbers and but an iota of a fraction in the vast territory where fearmongering is being perpetrated. How did this small nation, the speck of land in the entire region, come to be feared? So feared as to be attacked in the womb, the deepest place of foundational security, where men, women, children, and babies are formed, now being slaughtered in their homes.

 I've been taking measure of my own heart and soul space, laying low, being quiet (for me). Because feeling the ancestral dread is simply too much for me. I am weak when faced with the darkness, perhaps a new Dark Age rising in our day. And then, I use my ‘tools, my own method coming into CONSCIOUSNESS first, becoming aware of my fear, shallow breath, beating heart, mind foggy and unable to process the beheading of humans, acknowledging with despair all humanity on other continents who still today suffer these atrocities ongoing, ongoing, ongoing.

 The feelings could suffocate but they must be felt in order to heal the trauma of darkness. And I ask myself questions, What can I do? What do I need? What do I want? And this: Why? Why are these things important? Speaking out CLARITY for myself to come back into my body. And I answer myself: Because when I am in charge of my mind, heart, energy, and soul, I can light the way, perhaps only a speck of light in the darkness, but still, a small beacon for others to find. And with this, I grow more CONFIDENT--yes I can, I choose to be on the side of light, not bifurcating humanity but fusing, fusing, fusing through lovingly and patiently edifying and leading. And the light grows as others join me, it does. And we make our own small army of light so others can see, heads now rising up from the darkest fear, and joining up in strength, CALMLY and collectively marching forward, simply one step at a time. We call in the Light Teams of all Souls passed to support us, the angels, the energy, the wisdom of the ages, and we call in Love, to fuse this multicolored army of all people who want to stay in Enlightenment. It is the Calling of our time, the opportunity for greatness, fused not separate, on behalf of all humanity everywhere.